Do you remember?

Do you remember when the sight of someone made your heart flip flop? When just getting a few minutes to talk to them made you feel giddy inside? The excitement of your eyes locking and how it could make you feel for hours later? Once you are married almost 14 years that feeling can seem so long ago. Instead of raging infernos you have smoldering steady fires. The warmth is certainly there but the excitement and thrill of the unknown isn't always as easy to find. I think it is just natural over time. You trade the unpredictableness for the reliability and loyalty. Which is good, that is not what I'm saying. It is just sometimes you can miss that unpredictableness. At least I can.

R and I put tons of work into our relationship, fanning the flames so to speak. Date nights, little things,lots of communication, we work hard. In many ways our relationship is better now than it has ever been. And still lately sometimes I long for those "feelings of my youth" I guess I'd call them. When we first met and things were so raw and exciting and there was a heightened sense of everything. I'm glad we have a vacation with just us coming up soon. I think it is going to be just what I need. Being away from everything can help you rediscover those reasons you fell in love in the first place and recapture some of that excitement that I've been missing.